Remember Him

Dealing with so much going on, but also needing to bring Jesus into it is hard. I have always tried to deal with my own problems knowing what I should do. That I CAN lay these things at His feet and that He wants me too. But, I have so much pride. Even pride I do not recognize. It makes me sad that I can look at these problems without asking for His sight to truly see what is going on. That He is the only way to fix these things. That He is always the way, and I should not lean on my own understanding.

Even as I write this I feel the distance I place between me and God. I do not know what this wall is that needs to be broken down. This veil I wish could be lifted on its own. But, I need to turn to Him. I need to run, NO sprint towards Him. As I run I need to let go of all these things in my arms that I am burdening myself with. That I am holding up. Because these arms, these HUMAN arms are growing tired. I needn’t run far. Because He was right there beside me all along. But, holding onto these things all on my own left me feeling like I was running trying to rid myself of them. And THIS, is how I feel.

I must remember my FIRST Love.

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